Mummy has found some very beautiful poems, lyrics, quotes, scriptures, and stories online - These words very much describe the turmoil and emotions surrounding the loss of a baby. Many of these have been adapted for Thomas.

We will share these here in remembrance of you and of all the other 'Little ones' who pass on before their time.

(Many of the poems I found online have no signature - many are signed 'Author Unknown'. If there are any words or poems here that belong to you and you are offended by my use of them here, firstly I apologise and secondly - please let me know so that I can credit your work to you.)

Our Bud in Heaven

One bud the Gardener gave us, a fair and only child,
He gave him to our keeping, to cherish undefiled,
He lay upon my bosom, he was our hope, our pride -
Perhaps he was an idol, which we must be denied.
For just as he was opening, in glory to the day,
Came down the Heavenly Gardener and took the bud away.
Yet not in wrath He took him, a smile was on His face,
And tenderly and kindly He bore him from his place.
"Fear not" He whispered, "thy bud shall be restored,
I take him but to plant her, in the garden of the Lord"

Then bid us not to sorrow as those who hopeless weep
For He who gave hath taken and He who took can keep.
And night and morn together, by the open gate of prayer,
We'll go unto our Darling and sit beside him there.
I know 'twill open for us, poor sinners tho' we be,
For it is His dear sake who keeps it and keeps our bud for me.

Author unknown

I'm Still Here

Mommy, please don't mourn for me.
I'm still hear, though you don't see.
I'm right by your side each night and day
and within your heart I long to stay.
My body is gone, but I'm always near.
I'm everything you feel, see or hear.
My spirit is free, but I"ll never depart
as long as you keep me alive in your heart.
I'll never wander out of your sight.
I'm the brightest star on a summer night.
I'll never be beyond your reach.
I'm the warm, moist sand when you're at the beach.

Author Unknown

Under the Walnut Tree

When I face what has left my life,
I bow. I walk outside into the cold,
rain nesting in my hair.
All the houses near me have their lights on.
Somewhere, there is a deep listening.
I stand in the dark for a long time
under the walnut tree, unable to tell anyone,
not even the night, what I know.
I feel the darkness rush towards me,
and I open my arms.

Lynn Martin

The Gift of Someone Who Listens

Those of us who have traveled awhile
Along this path called grief
Need to stop and remember that mile,
The first mile of no relief.
It wasn't the person with answers,
Who told us the ways to deal.
It wasn't the one who talked and talked
That helped us start to heal.
Think of friends who quietly sat
And held our hands in theirs,
The ones who let us talk and talk
And hugged away our tears.
We need to always remember
That, more than the words we speak,
It's the gift of someone who listens
That most of us desperately seek.

Author: Nancy Myerholts

Against All Odds
(Take A Look At Me Now)

Phil Collins

How can I just let you walk away,
Just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking every breath with you, ooh
You're the only one who really knew me at all

How can you just walk away from me,
when all I can do is watch you leave
Cos we've shared the laughter and the pain,
and even shared the tears
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now,
Well there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me,
just the memory of your face
Oh Take a look at me now,
Well there's just an empty space
And you coming back to me is against the odds
and that's what I've got to face

I wish I could just make you turn around,
turn around and see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you,
so many reasons why
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now,
Well there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me,
just the memory of your face
Now Take a look at me now,
'cos there's just an empty space
But to wait for you, is all I can do
and that's what I've got to face

Take a good look at me now,
'cos I'll still be standing here
And you coming back to me is against all odds
It's the chance I've got to take,
Take a look at me now

An Angel Never Dies

Don't let them say I wasn't born,
That something stopped my heart
I felt each tender squeeze you gave,
I've loved you from the start.

Although my body you can't hold,
It doesn't mean I'm gone,
This world was worthy not of me,
God chose that I move on.

I know the pain that drowns your soul,
What you are forced to face.
You have my word, I'll fill your arms,
Someday we will embrace.

You'll hear that it was "meant to be
God doesn't make mistakes,"

But that won't soften your worst blow,
Or make your heart not ache.

I'm watching over all you do,
Another child you'll bear,
Believe me when I say to you,
That I am always there

There will come a time, I promise you
When you will hold my hand,
Stroke my face and kiss my lips,
And you'll understand.

Although I've never breathed your air,
Or gazed into your eyes
That doesn't mean I never "was"
An angel never dies.

Author Unknown
It's lonely here without you,
We miss you more each day,
For life is not the same to us,
Since you were called away.

Your resting place we visit,
Place flowers there with care,
But no one knows our heartache,
When we turn to leave you there.

Author Unknown

Calling All Angels


I need a sign to let me know you're here
All of these lines are being crossed over the atmosphere
I need to know that things are gonna look up
'Cause I feel us drowning in a sea spilled from a cup

When there is no place safe and no safe place to put my head
When you feel the world shake from the words that are said

And I'm calling all angels
And I'm calling all you angels
I won't give up if you don't give up
I wont give up if you don't give up
I wont give up if you don't give up
I wont give up if you don't give up

I need a sign to let me know you're here
'Cause my TV set just keeps it all from being clear
I want a reason for the way things have to be
I need a hand to help build up some kind of hope inside of me

And I'm calling all angels
And I'm calling all you angels

When children have to play inside so they don't disappear
While private eyes solve marriage lies cause we don't talk for years
And football teams are kissing Queens
and losing sight of having dreams
In a world that what we want is only what we want until it's ours

And I'm calling all angels
And I'm calling all you angels
And I'm calling all angels
And I'm calling all you angels
calling all you angels
calling all you angels
calling all you angels

Precious Child

Karen Taylor

Good In my dreams, you are alive and well
Precious child, precious child
In my mind, I see you clear as a bell
Precious child, precious child

In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart, there is hope
'Cause you are with me still

In my heart, you live on
Always there, never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever, in my heart

In my plans, I was the first to leave
Precious child, precious child
But in this world, I was left here to grieve
Precious child, my precious child

In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart there is hope
And you are with me still

In my heart you live on
Always there, never gone
Precious child, you left too soon,
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever, in my heart

God knows I want to hold you,
See you, touch you
And maybe there's a heaven
And someday I will again
Please know you're not forgotten until then

In my heart you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever, in my heart

Come With Me

The Lord saw you getting tired and a cure was not to be.
So he put his arms around you and whispered, "come with me"

With tearful eyes, we watched you suffer and saw you fade away.
Although we loved you dearly, we could not make you stay.

A golden heart stopped beating, a beautiful smile at rest,
God broke our hearts to prove he only takes the best.

It's lonesome here without you. We miss you so each day.
Our lives aren't the same since you went away.

When days are sad and lonely and everything goes wrong,
We seem to hear you whisper, "Cheer up and carry on"

Each time we see your picture, you seem to smile and say,
"Don"t cry, I"m in Gods keeping, we'll meet again someday"

Author Unknown

As I sit and stare at the shimmering moon,
I also sit here and hope to see you soon,
Then I realise I won't be able to see you tomorrow....
So I sit here and cry in sorrow
Now I only uphold a dream which I hope to come true
And that one dream is to be reunited in Heaven with you.

Author Unknown

We bereaved are not alone..
Inevitably, we feel about us their arms, their sympathy,
their understanding.
Believe when you are the most unhappy,
that there is something for you to do in the world.

So long as you can sweeten another's pain, life is not vain.

Helen Keller

"Pooh promise me you won't ever forget me, ever.
Not even when I'm a hundred."

Pooh thought for awhile
"How old shall I be then?"
Pooh nodded,
"I promise," he said
"If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred minus one day,
so I never have to live without you."

Winnie the Pooh
One Sweet Day

Mariah Carey and Boyz II Men

Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say
And now it's too late to hold you
'cause you've flown away
So far away

Never had I imagined
Living without your smile
Feeling and knowing you hear me
It keeps me alive Alive

And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together ~ together
One sweet day

Eventually we'll sing in heaven
Darling I never showed you
Assumed you'd always be there
And I, I took your presence for granted
But I always cared
And I miss the love we shared

And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day

Eventually we'll sing in heaven
Although the sun will never shine the same
I'll always look to a brighter day
Lord I know when I lay me down to sleep
You will always listen as I pray

And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
Yes we will
One sweet day
Eventually we'll sing in heaven
Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say

The Empty Womb

I carried you so lovingly,
within my gentle womb...
and little did I realize,
your life would end too soon.
I never got the chance to say
"I love you, little one"...
before I held you in my arms,
your life on earth was done.
The grief is indescribable,
to lose a child this way...
all the many hopes and dreams,
just vanished on that day.
I know I'll see the sun shine bright
upon my baby's face...
when I finally get to heaven,
all my pain will be erased.
We'll soar the skies together,
as angels two by two...
we'll have a sweet reunion;
this mother's dream come true

(c) Jill Lemming All Rights Reserved

Open Arms


Lying beside you, here in the dark, feeling your heart beat with mine
Softly you whisper, you're so sincere, how could our love be so blind
We sailed on together, we drifted apart, and here you are by my side

So now I come to you with open arms, nothing to hide, believe what I say
So here I am with open arms, hoping you'll see what your love means to me Open arms

Living without you, living alone, this empty house seems so cold
Wanting to hold you, wanting you near, how much I wanted you home
But now that you've come back, turned night into day, I need you to stay

So now I come to you with open arms, nothing to hide, believe what I say
So here I am with open arms, hoping you'll see what your love means to me Open arms

Don't Look Back

As you travel through life there are always those times
when decisions just have to be made,
when the choices are hard and solutions seem scarce
and the rain seems to soak your parade!

There are some situations where all you can do
is to simply let go and move on,
gather courage together and choose a direction
that carries you toward a new dawn.

So pack up your troubles and take a step forward.
The process of change can be tough.
But think about all the excitement ahead,
if you can be stalwart enough!

There could be adventures you never imagined
just waiting around the next bend
and wishes and dreams just about to come true
in ways you can't yet comprehend!

Perhaps you'll find friendships that spring from new interests,
as you challenge your status quo
and learn there are so many options in life,
and so many ways you can grow!

Perhaps you'll go places you never expected
and see things that you've never seen,
or travel to fabulous, faraway worlds
and wonderful spots in between!

Perhaps you'll find warmth, affection and caring,
a "somebody special" who's there
to help you stay centered and listen with interest
to stories and feelings you share.

Perhaps you'll find comfort in knowing your friends
are supportive of all that you do
and believe that whatever decisions you make,
they'll be the right choices for you!

So keep putting one foot in front of the other
and taking your life day by day.
There's a brighter tomorrow that's just down the road.
Don't look back, you're not going that way!

Author Unknown

~ Kisses to Heaven ~

Today I sent a kiss to Heaven
I'm encouraging all of you to try
For if I have shared this with you
You have had a child die.

This kiss came from deep inside
And I know that it truly was received
Right after I had sent my kiss
A calming breeze surrounded me.

Not only that, a wind chime rang
From where I do not know
But I felt my children smile at me
And say they love me so.

Take a kiss within your hands
And look up to the sky
Release that kiss with loving care
Now please try not to cry.

Once your kiss is off to them
To Heaven's gate above
Just look for any single sign
Of your child's precious love.

~ Unknown Author ~


Barbara Streisand

Someday, somewhere
We'll find a new way of living
Will find a way of forgiving


There's a place for us
Somewhere a place for us
Peace and quiet and open air
Wait for us


There's a time for us
Someday there'll be a time for us
Time together with time to spare
Time to learn, time to care

Someday, somewhere

We'll find a new way of living
We'll find there's a way of forgiving


There's a place for us
A time and a place for us
Hold my hand and we're half way there
Hold my hand and I'll take you there


Please teach me, Lord...
I want to know
Exactly how to pray.
I need some words
Which ones are right?
Please tell me what to say.

I've bowed my head
I have knelt down,
But...should I be upright?
I've closed my eyes,
I've raised my hands,
Or...should I fold them tight?

Do I stand up?
Should I sit down?
Dear Lord...what do you like?
Are lights turned on Or are they off?

Wear my glasses?
Take them off?
Be at my desk or table?
Should I whisper?
Speak out loud?
Do I quote the Bible?

What do you think About the time?
Do You prefer the dawn?
Should I pray fast,
Or keep it slow?
Better short...or long?

I'm new at this
What are the rules?
I want to do it right.
How do I know
You'll even hear
That I am in Your sight?

And while I sat there quietly,
Waiting for some sign,
I heard a gentle voice say,
"Oh, dearest child of mine...
Do you think I really care
About the time of day,
Or whether you are standing up,
Or kneeling when you pray?

I don't care about your posture,
Or about the place you choose;
Just open up your soul to me,
I have no other rules.
Tell me what is in your heart,
And tell me what you seek;
Tell me of your sorrows,
And of those things that made you weak."

"Speak to me in private
About what concerns you most;
I know about your good deeds...
You have no need to boast.
My child, you don't need lessons,
Just talk to me each day;
Tell me anything you want,
dear child,
Anyone can pray."

Author unknown



I'm alone yeah I don't know if I can face the night
I'm in tears and the cryin that I do is for you
I want your love let's break the walls between us
Don't make it tough, I'll put away my pride
Enough's enough, I've suffered and I've seen the light

You're my angel come and save me tonight
You're my angel come and make it alright

Don't know what I'm gonna do about this feeling inside
Yes, it's true loneliness took me for a ride Yeah
Without your love, I'm nothin but a beggar
Without your love, a dog without a bone
What can I do, I'm sleepin in this bed alone

You're my angel come and save me tonight
You're my angel come and make it alright
come and save me tonight

You're the reason I live
You're the reason I die
You're the reason I give when I break down and cry
Don't need no reason why

You're my angel come and save me tonight
You're my angel come and make it alright
You're my angel come and save me tonight
You're my angel come and take me alright
come and save me tonight
come and save me tonight
come and save me tonight
come and save me tonight
come and save me tonight

~ God's Garden ~

God looked around his garden
And found an empty place
He then looked down on earth
And saw your tired face

He put his arms around you
And lifted you to rest
God's garden must be beautiful
He only takes the best

He knew you were suffering
He knew you were in pain
He knew that you would never
Get well on earth again

He saw the road was getting rough
The hills were hard to climb
So He closed your weary eyelids
And whispered, "Peace be thine."

It broke our hearts to lose you
But you didn't go alone
For part of us went with you
The day God called you home

Author Unknown


The Beatles

All my troubles seemed so far away
Now it looks as though they're here to stay
Oh I believe
In yesterday

I'm not half the girl I used to be
There's a shadow hangin' over me
Oh, yesterday came suddenly

Why she had to go I don't know
She wouldn't say
I said something wrong
Now I long
For yesterday

Life was such an easy game to play
Now I need a place to hide away
Oh I believe
In yesterday

Why she had to go I don't know
She wouldn't say
I said something wrong
Now I long
For yesterday

Life was such an easy game to play
Now I need a place to hide away
Oh I believe
In yesterday

His and Hers

They both feel helpless.
But they each seek their own roles.
They have to find a way to cope,
To soothe their shattered souls.
He wants to take away her pain,
And make her safe once more.
She wants to share her tears with him,
Bare herself to the core.
He wants to make it better,
And he wants to be assured,
That everything will be okay.
That their love has endured.
She wants to talk some more
about their child who has died.
He thinks that he's done something wrong,
And that is why she sighed.
She's crying once again,
And she won't get out of bed.
He sees her journal perched atop
all those books she's read.
She sees him start new projects,
Go to work and watch TV.
She wonders how he does it,
How he has the energy.
But sometimes, There's a moment,
When they're both on the same plane.
Sometimes, For just a moment,
Their grief seems just the same.
It's in those small shared moments
that they need so very much,
That they find each other reaching,
That they find each other's touch.

Gwen Flowers

Lost Love

I never got to see you,
My precious bundle of joy.
I never got to know you,
Were you a girl or a boy?

I never got to hold you,
And rock you to and fro.
I never got to kiss you,
Or count your little toes.

I never got to see your face,
Eyes open with a smile.
I never got to have you,
Even for a little while.

I never got to keep you,
I had to let you go.
I never got a chance to say,
I really love you so.

Debbie Gasparovich

Angel Friends

A beautiful little angel showed up to Heaven's gates,
Confused and unknowing the plan that for him awaits.
Then another little angel walked up and took his hand,
And said, "Please don't be sad you left, you're in the Promised Land."
"I'm glad to be here but I do not think I was to go,
Perhaps there was a mistake, for my mommy wanted me so!"

The little greeting angel gave a sweet smile and said,
"My mommy wanted me too, but to Heaven I was led.
You see, we do not get to choose when on Earth it's time to go.
He gave us life, love and joy and a mother's womb to grow.
The Lord still needs new angels to guide them down on earth.
To watch over, comfort them, and help them see their worth."

"Is there still a way that I can sleep in my mommy's bed?"
The greeting angel grinned and said, "That luxury you will keep.
I visit my mommy nightly and softly sing her to sleep."

The little angel replied, "Then I think I'll like it here.
I'll visit my mommy nightly and weaken her pain and fears.
I love her and will keep her safe at night and in between,
And let her know with a sweet memory that she is still with me."

The greeting angel gave the new friend a big hug and said,
"Until our mommy's meet us here, let's be best angel friends."
"Okay," said the new angel, "that sounds good to me."
Then the angels sat and played keeping their mommy's in sight,
Humming the tune to the song they would sing to their mommies tonight.


Dear Mommy and Daddy

I just wanted to let you know,
That I made it home.
The journey wasn't an easy one,
But it didn't take to long.

Everything is so pretty here,
So white, so fresh and new.
I wish that you could close your eyes,
And that you could see it too.

Please try not to be sad for me...
Try to understand.
God is taking care of me...
I'm in the shelter of his hands.

Here there is no sadness,
No sorrow and no pain.
Here there is no crying,
No hurt for us again.

Here it is so peaceful,
When all the angels sing.
I really have to go now-
I've just got to try my wings.

Unknown Author
Just think of me, and I'll be there,
I'm always around, I'm everywhere,
I'm in your dreams when you sleep,
I hear your cries when you weep,
Don't be sad, wear a smile on your face,
all my sufferings in a better place,
I've left this world, my bodies gone,
but in your hearts my soul lives on,
I know you'll grieve and suffer pain
but one day soon we'll be together again

Author Unknown
Footprints Across our Heart

The door is closed.
The lights turned off.
The closet stands bare.
All the room once waiting...
For the child that should be there.
Sorrow wells up inside of us.
Our tears, an endless flow.
All because we miss the child...
The child we'll never know
No camping trips,
No soccer games,
Nor late evening talks;
No baseball camps or shopping trips,
No shaded mountain walks.
We have not even memories,
To help through times like these
We only have each other as we go down on our knees...
To plead with you,
Our Father,
To take this pain away.
To help us know your love,
Will guide us through each day.
We may never know the reasons,
For this terrible tragedy;
But we can know you love us,
Through all life's mysteries.
Our time was far too brief,
It was over before its start;
But our little angel left behind,
Footprints Across Our Heart

W. Patrick Queen

May the road rise to meet you
May the wind be always at your back
May the sun shine warm upon your face
The rains fall soft upon your fields
And, until we meet again may
God hold you in the hollow of his hand

Author Unknown


Ripples of memories,
Waves of dreams
Shimmering surfaces
Not as it seems....

It isn't as clear
In my mind anymore,
Nothing's as simple
As it was before.

But somehow I know,
Past the ripples and rings
It all becomes clear,
There are brighter things.

I don't understand
The how's or the whys,
Of silent babies
And mother's cries

Author Unknown


A kiss to you on mothers day,
A hug from me to you.
I know that you are sad sometimes,
I know that you are blue.

Please wipe away that tear,
Put on a happy face.
For I'm with God in Heaven now,
Oh mommy, what a wonderful place!

God gave me wings so I could fly,
They are white with a hint of blue.
I'm a big boy mommy, with these wings of mine,
They carry me down to visit you.

God is teaching me how to catch your prayers,
prayers that come as wishes.
Your wish is the same everyday,
A wish that I could have stayed.

I have a prayer for you now mommy,
I pray that you will hear.
God needed me here with him,
I have no pain or fear.

For I am an Angel now you see,
I watch over you each night and day.
A little piece of heaven on earth,
Guiding you on your way.

I come to tuck you in each night,
As you wanted to do with me.
I hear your prayers, and kiss your cheek,
Then I watch you dream.

Before I leave you and go back home,
I look at you and sigh.
And as I fly back to heaven,
I sing you a lull-a-bye.

A kiss to you on mothers day,
A hug from me to you.
I love you mommy, please don't cry,
You'll get to hold me soon.

Heather Peterson

written for

Gage Alexander Peterson

How do you love a person
Who never got to be,
Or try again to see a face
You never got to see?

How do you mourn the death of one
Who never got to live,
When there's nothing to feel good about
And nothing to forgive?

I love you, little sister.
You're a person of the wind,
Free to be the memory
Of all that might have been.

I love you, little sister,
My companion of the night,
Wandering through my lonely hours,
Beautiful and bright.

What does it mean to die before
You ever can be born,
To live the lovely night of life
And never see the dawn?

Ah! My little sister,
You lived like anyone!
Life's a burst of joy and pain,
And then, like yours, it's done.

I love you, little sister,
Just as if you'd lived for years.
No more, no less, I think of you,
The angel of my tears.

Unknown Author


My angel sends a butterfly,
To land upon my arm.
He sends me signs to let me know,
He's safe & loved & warm.

My angel sends me rainbows
On a cloudy day.
I understand that he is near,
And things will be okay.

Today be sent me snowflakes,
From a sunny sky above.
I could feel his presence,
And the power of his love.

My angel sends me little signs
In the moon and skies
The signs are subtle, yet I know,
They're meant just for my eyes.

I look for all these little signs,
To comfort me each day.
The signs can even make me laugh,
My angel loves to play!

These signs are The Creator's things,
And you might think it's odd,
To believe my angel sends these signs,
He does...He's one with God.

Author: Jamie Van Der Meer
I stood beside your bed last night,
I came to have a peep.
I could see that you were crying,
quietly in your sleep.

I touched you softly
as you brushed away a tear,
"It's me, I haven't left you,
I'm well, I'm fine, I'm here."

I was close to you at breakfast,
I watched you pour coffee,
You were thinking of how much
you longed to be with me.

I was with you at the store today,
Your arms were getting sore.
I longed to take your parcels,
I wish I could do more.

I was with you at my grave today,
You tend it with such care.
I want to reassure you,
that I'm not really there.

I walked with you to the house,
as you fumbled for your key.
I gently put my hand on you,
I smiled and said "it's me."

You looked so very tired,
and sank into a chair.
I tried so hard to let you know,
that I was standing there.

It's possible for me to be so near
you everyday.
To say to you with certainty,
"I never went away."

You sat there very quietly,
then smiled, I think you knew ...
In the stillness of that evening,
I was very close to you.

The day is over... I smile and
watch you yawning and say "goodnight,
God bless, I'll see you in the morning."
And when the time is right

for you to cross the brief divide,
I'll rush across to greet you
and we'll stand,
side by side.

I have so many things to show you,
there is so much for you to see.
Be patient, live your journey out
then come home to be with me.

Author Unknown
I Believe

I believe in the sun even when it is not shining.
I believe in love even when I feel it not.
I believe in God even when He is silent.

written on a wall in a concentration camp
Little one, little one,
Where have you gone?
Your going has darkened
The brightest dawn.

Why did you leave us so soon,
so soon?
Where can we look for you?
Over the moon?

On butterflies wings?
In the heart of a roe?
Who knows, who knows
Where a little one goes?

Where I have gone,
I am not so small.
My soul is as wide
As the world is tall.

I have gone to answer
The call, the call
Of the One who takes
Care of us all.

Wherever you look,
You will find me there -
In the heart of a rose,
In the heart of a prayer.

On butterflies wings,
On wings of my own,
To you, I'm gone,
But I'm never alone-

I'm over the moon.
I am home.

Jim Howard
I can see you but
you do not see me.
I am walking with Angels
and eating fresh fruit from the trees.

I am still with family
up here in the clouds,
We too exchange smiles
with the new love that we've found.

Be proud of what you've done,
for me whilst I was there,
The love you gave and
how much you care.

During this hard time
whilst we are apart,
Keep me warm and
cuddle me with your heart,

For the time will come again...
when we will reunite,
Together, forever
in eternal light.

Author Unknown

And if I go while you are still here,
Know that I live on, vibrating to a different measure.
Behind a thin veil, you cannot see through.
You will not see me, so you must have faith.
I wait for the time, when we can soar together again - both aware of each other.
Until then live your life to the fullest,
And when you need me...
Just whisper my name in your heart.

written by: Colleen Corah Hitchcock
Spirit Art International, Inc. P.O. Box 39082 Edina, MN 55439
copyright ©1987, Colleen Corah Hitchcock

Goo Goo Dolls

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
And sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies Yeah
you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

There's a Friend for little children

There's a Friend for little children,
Above the bright blue sky;
A Friend who never changeth,
Whose love can never die.

Unlike our friends by nature,
Who change with changing years,
This Friend is always worthy
The precious name he bears.

There's a home for little children,
Above the bright blue sky;
Where Jesus dwells in glory,
A home of peace and joy.

No home on earth is like it,
Or can with it compare;
For everyone is happy,
Nor could be happier there.

Author Unknown

The Awakening

This morning, upon my husband's pillow,
A tear.
Last night I heard no weeping.
I felt no rhythmic shaking.
Yet there it is - Glistening,
silent testimony to pain.

Quickly I reach to blot it,
As if one swift brush
could set the world right again
But something stays my hand -
Stops me to wonder,
"Am I the cause of weeping?"

In my life is much sorrow,
Dreadful longing and emptiness
That even my husband cannot fill.
Sorrow brings sleepless nights in fear
Of other phone calls and ambulances
More longing and emptiness.

My husband shares this loss,
But men don't cry
They nod gravely and tend to details,
Make arrangements and give support
Yet, there it is upon his pillow -
A tear.

Have I given way to grief
And forgotten one who shares?
Have I made no room for his tears
In the flood of mine?
Am I the reason he weeps
Only in the silence of night?

I close my hand
To leave the tear drying there.
No more will I blot out his pain
To tend to mine,
For we must share
In order to live - together.

Marcia F Alig - New Jersey

With Hope


Steven Curtis Chapman

This is not at all how we thought it was supposed to be
We had so many plans for you
We had so many dreams
And now you've gone away
And left us with the memories of your smile
And nothing we can say, and nothing we can do
Can take away the pain, the pain of losing you, but....

We can cry with hope
We can say good-bye with hope
'Cause we know our good-bye is not the end, oh no
And we can grieve with hope
'Cause we believe with hope
There's a place by God's grace
There's a place where we'll see your face again
We'll see your face again.

And never have I known anything so hard to understand
And never have I questioned more
The wisdom of God's plan
But through the cloud of tears
I see the Father's smile and say well done
And I imagine you where you wanted most to be
Seeing all your dreams come true
'Cause now you're home and now you're free, and...

We have this hope as an anchor
'Cause we believe that everything God promised us is true so....

We wait with hope
And we ache with hope
We hold on with hope
We let go with hope

(c) 1999 Sparrow Song / Peach Hill Songs

I cannot understand

I cannot understand
The why and wherefore of a thousand things,
The crosses, the annoyances,
the daily stings.

I cannot understand - But I can trust,
And perfect trusting perfect comfort brings.

I cannot clearly see
Why life to one brings joy - unlooked for gain,
While to another bitter heartaches come, and pain.
I cannot clearly see; But I can trust,
And by and by my Father will explain.

I cannot see the end,
The hidden meaning of each trial sent,
The pattern into which each tangled thread is bent.
I cannot see the end; But I can trust,
And in His changeless love I am content.

I cannot grasp the whole
Of life's great symphony,
nor find the key to these
strange minor cadences perplexing me.
I cannot grasp the whole - But I can trust,
In Him whose ways are perfect harmony.

And knowing Thee
when trial and sorrow press,
When nerves are weary and the body weak,
I neither try to think, nor try to pray,
But REST in Thee
with love that need not speak.

Author unknown

No one remembers, I cannot say why,
Only thing I keep thinking, is that nobody tried.
You were mine, only mine, no one knew you like me.
I don't know why he couldn't just let you be.

We shared so much in our short time together,
And the time that we shared has made memories forever.
So much I learned, so much I lost,
Everything turned, toppled, and tossed.

Butterfly flutters, then turns and kicks,
Then that sad day...was my mind playing tricks?
No cry, no movement, not even a breath,
As you lay on my tummy...Perfect even in death.

When I think of you now at the age you would be,
A beautiful little boy is the child I see.
My son you were, my son you'll always be,
And one, that is us, you and me.

We cried tears when we learned that a child would be,
that our God had allowed you to quicken in me.
We cried tears with our loved ones as they shared our joy,
and we thought about names for a girl or a boy.

I cried tears as I thought of the things we would do,
all the things that your Daddy would pass on to you.
And I cried as I thought of each inch you had grown,
as I pondered the day that you'd make yourself known.

Then to think of the world you'd enter brought fears,
once again little loved one, your Mother cried tears.
Something's wrong, I can tell, once again there are tears,
and I'll not get the chance of your love through the years.

Oh the ache and the sorrow and all of the pain,
and again, yes again, my tears fall like the rain.
Then his peace comes to me as I think of you there,
gently rocking with Father in his favorite chair.

Your sweet little fingers clenched tight in His palm,
and His Son softly singing to help keep you calm.
Our God knew your days before they came to be,
and He knew, little one, that you would not stay with me.

So I cry, but I know that when this life is done,
I will greet and embrace you my sweet little one.
There's a time to be born and a time to die,
and the joy and the sorrow both make us cry.

Author Unknown

Stressful situations and trying times are some of the realities of life.
When you experience them,
you may think they'll never leave.
But even the most difficult times come and go,
and the strength you need to meet the situation will be there for you in the helping hand of a friend,
in the compassion of a loved one who cares,
and in the listening ear of someone who knows what you're going through.
All you have to do is look up and reach out,
and someone will be there to share your troubles.

Author Unknown

Rise up, slowly, Angel.
I cannot let you go.
Just drift softly midst the faces,
In sorrow now bent low.

Ease the searing anger,
Born in harsh unyielding truth
That Death could steal my loved one
From the glowing blush of youth.

Rise up slowly, Angel.
Do not leave me hear alone,
Where the warmth of mortal essence
Lies replaced by cold, hard stone.

Speak to me in breezes
Whispered through the drying leaves,
And caress my brow with raindrops
Filtered by the sheltering trees

Rise up slowly, Angel,
For I cannot hear the song
Which calls you through the shadows
Into the light beyond.

Wrap me in your downy cape Of sunshine,
warm with love,
And kiss a tear-stained mother's face
With moonlight from above.

Then wait for me at sunset,
Beside the lily pond,
And guide me safely homeward
To your world,which lies beyond.

Just spread your wings and take me
In reunion's sweet embrace,
And we shall soar, together,
To a different time and place.


Diane Robertson
of Cape Cod, Massachusetts.

This poem was published by Bereavement
Publishing of Colorado Springs, CO
and is included in their book, "Food for the Soul"
The Guest House

This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness
comes as an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they are a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house empty of its furniture,
still, treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice.
Meet them at the door laughing and invite them in.
Be grateful for whatever comes.
Because each has been sent as a guide from beyond.

Jelaluddin Rumi
When God sends forth a little soul
To learn the ways of earth
A mothers love is waiting there
We call this miracle birth
When God call back a tiny soul
And stills a fleeting breath
A fathers love is waiting there
This too is birth, not death.

Unknown Author

Sitting Here With You

In memory of

' Lane Allen Orr '

March 12, 2002

Sitting here with my grandson
I sit quietly and my mind strays,
As I think of other grandparents
and how they spend their days.

Some spend them at the playgrounds
pushing grandkids in the swings,
Some lie in the newly mown grass
and listen to little ones dreams.

Running thru the tall grass
with butterflies and nets,
Catching different kinds of bugs
and keeping them for pets.

Getting chocolate cookie kisses
and lots of I love you's,
Looking through old pictures
and seeing how much they grew.

But sitting here with my grandson
I have no one to hold,
The angels came and took him
When he was just a day old.

So I visit his little grave side
and I ask our God above,
To please keep him in his loving arms
and let him know that he is forever loved..


©Patricia Orr


My heart leaps up when I behold
A rainbow in the sky:
So was it when my life began;
So is it now I am a man;
So be it when I shall grow old,
Or let me die!
The Child is father of the Man;
I could wish my days to be
Bound each to each by natural piety.

William Wordsworth

Cut Brambles Long Enough

Cut brambles long enough,
Sprout after sprout,
And the lotus will bloom
Of its own accord:
Already waiting in the clearing,
The single image of light.
The day you see this,
That day you will become it.

Sun Bu-er




Vicki Tushingham

Just for today I will try to live through the next 24 hours and not expect to get over my child's death, but instead learn to live with it just one day at a time.

Just for today I will remember my child's life, not his death, and bask in the comfort of all those treasured days and moments we shared.

Just for today I will forgive all the family and friends who didn't help or comfort me the way I needed them to. They truly did not know how.

Just for today I will smile no matter how much I hurt on the inside, for maybe if I smile a little, my heart will soften and I will begin to heal.

Just for today I will reach out to comfort a relative or friend of my child, for they are hurting too, and perhaps we can comfort each other.

Just for today I will free myself from my self-inflicted burden of guilt, for deep in my heart I know if there was anything in this world I could have done to save my child from death, I would have done it.

Just for today I will honor my child's memory by doing something with another child because I know that would have made my own child proud.

Just for today I will offer my hand in friendship to another bereaved parent, for I do know how they feel.

Just for today when my heart feels like breaking, I will stop and remember that grief is the price we pay for loving and the only reason I hurt is because I had the privilege of loving so much.

Just for today I will not compare myself with others. I am fortunate to be who I am and to have had my child I had for as long as I did.

Just for today I will allow myself to be happy, for I know that I am not deserting him by living on.

Just for today I will accept that I did not die when my child did, my life did go on, and I am the only one who can make that life worthwhile once more.

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February 23rd 2003 'Baby D' - Miscarraige 10 weeks pregnant

Thomas - January 1st 2004 8:31am - Born Still (31 1/4 wks)

"Fly, fly little wing - Fly beyond imagining"

Pregnant Again: Due - 4th November 2004....
'Please let us take this one home with us'

Miscarriage - Lost twin - 31st March 2004 at 9 weeks

~ Milly Ingrid Dixon ~

Born on the 16th November 2004, 3:43am - 8lbs 12ozs

A beautiful baby sister for Thomas!

~ Robert George Dixon ~

Born on the 18th March 2008 - 7lbs 15ozs