Mummy has found some very beautiful poems, lyrics, quotes, scriptures, and stories online - These words very much describe the turmoil and emotions surrounding the loss of a baby. Many of these have been adapted for Thomas.

We will share these here in remembrance of you and of all the other 'Little ones' who pass on before their time.

(Many of the poems I found online have no signature - many are signed 'Author Unknown'. If there are any words or poems here that belong to you and you are offended by my use of them here, firstly I apologise and secondly - please let me know so that I can credit your work to you.)

If Snowdrops
Grow in Heaven

If Snowdrops grow in heaven,
Please pick a bunch for me,
place them in my babies arms
and tell him they're from me.
Tell him I love him and miss him,
and when he turns to smile,
place a kiss upon his cheek
and hold him for a while.
Because remembering him is easy,
I do it every day,
but there's an ache within my heart
That will never go away.

- Author Unknown -

"You are mine, forever love, and you are watching over me from up above.
Fly me up to where you are beyond the distant star, I wish upon tonight to see you smile.
If only for a while to know you're there.
A breath away is not far to where you are."

- Josh Groban -

"To Where You Are"

I Am A Mother

I've loved my child right from the start,
A feeling that's filled my entire heart.
I went through the labor and suffered the pain,
For many long hours with nothing to gain.
I've spent sleepless nights being awake,
Though it's been a while my arms they still ache.
I've sat and I've wondered of how he would grow,
The love of my family that he'd come to know.
The sound of his voice as he learns to talk,
Watching his steps as he tries to walk.
I have a child that I really love so,
I am his mother yet nobody knows.
I've spent all these months feeling him grow,
I've lived through it all and have nothing to show.
I don't get invited to chat with young mothers,
Because I don't have a baby like all the others.
I've got some stretch marks that I'd like to hide,
but I don't have a pram with a baby inside.
The people I've known for so many years,
They avoid me now, which adds to my tears.
I don't know how long I'll be feeling like this,
But one thing I know, my baby I miss.
When Mother's day comes it will be very hard,
I won't have any flowers, not even a card.
And just because he's not here with me,
I still have a son I wish I could see.
But one thing I know and this is for sure,
I'll be his mother forevermore!

- Author Unknown -

Footprints on our Hearts

This tiny set of footprints is all we have of you.
When you were taken from us, all our hopes and dreams were too.
We miss you oh so much, Our precious little boy.
Our lives are filled with sadness now, instead of filled with joy.

Our arms are empty, Our eyes are filled with tears.
You were what we'd waited for, for oh so many years.
You were so very beautiful. Perfect hands and feet, tiny nose and eyes.
What we would have given though, just to hear you cry.

Coming home without you wasn't what we'd dreamed.
Looking at your empty crib makes me want to scream.
We had so many plans for you, So many things to do.
Now we're left with shattered dreams, crying without you.

We wish you could have stayed with us, We loved you from the start.
Now all we have are memories, And your footprints on our hearts.

- Author Unknown -

The Child in My Heart

Precious, tiny, sweet little one
You will always be to me
So perfect, pure, and innocent
Just as you were meant to be.

We dreamed of you and your life
And all that it would be
We waited and longed for you to come
And join our family.

We never had the chance to play,
To laugh, to rock, to wiggle.
We long to hold you, touch you now
And listen to you giggle.

I'll always be your mother.
He'll always be your dad.
You'll always be our child,
The child we never had

But now you're gone...but yet you're here.
We'll sense you everywhere.
You are our sorrow and our joy.
There's love in every tear.

Just know our love goes deep and strong.
We'll forget you never
The child we had, but never had,
And yet will have forever.

Author Unknown
I Cannot say

I cannot say, and I will not say
That she is dead-she is just away!
With a cheery smile, and the wave of a hand,
She has wandered into an unknown land,
And left us dreaming how very fair
It needs must be, since she lingers there;
So think of her faring on, as dear
In the love of there as the love of here;
Think of her the same, I say:
She is not dead-she is just away!

~ James Whitcomb Riley ~

Rough wind, that moanest loud
Grief too sad for song;
Wild wind, when sullen cloud
knells all the night long;
sad storms, whose tears are vain,
Bare woods, whose branches strain,
Deep caves and dreary rain -

Wail, for the worlds wrong!

Percy

By

Shelley

I will come with you someday
only now is not my time,
Then we will be together again,
again you will be mine.

- Author Unknown -

Bitter or Better

Someone told me once that this experience
could change me in one of two ways
It could make me a better person,
or make me bitter for the rest of my days

I have felt both of these feelings
coming from within me
I try to fight the bitterness
and let the betterness free

The people in my life
that I always thought I could count on
Like some family and friends
they are the ones that cause the bitterness to dawn

They are the ones that just don't understand
the emptiness I have met
They are the ones that give me the looks
that say "Aren't you over it yet?"

The new acquaintances
and friends in my life
The people who understand where I am
and relate to my strife

They are the ones that bring out
the betterness from deep down
They let me talk as much as I want and
never meet my tears with a frown

I wish that my new friends
could explain to everyone else
That this is still very common and
perfectly acceptable to have sad spells

I know that I have to fight
the bitterness away
And let the betterness prevail
at the end of the day

If everyone were to understand that
I will always miss my son
Then maybe it wouldn't be just easier
said than done!

Only Time

By

Enya

Who can say
where the road goes
where the day flows
only time

And who can say
if your love grows
as your heart chose
only time

Who can say
why your heart sighs
as your love flies
only time

And who can say
why your heart cries
when your love lies
only time

Who can say
when the roads meet
that love might be in your heart

And who can say
when the day sleeps
if the night keeps all your heart
Night keeps all your heart

Who can say
if your love grows
as your heart chose
only time

And who can say
where the road goes
where the day flows
only time

Who knows
only time
Who knows
only time

~ Footprints ~


One night a man had a dream
He dreamed is was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life
For each scene is noticed two sets of footprints in the sand:
One belonging to him, and the other the Lord
When the last scene of his life flashed before him,
He looked back at the footprints in the sand
He noticed that many times along the path of his life,
There was only one set of footprints
He also noticed that it happened during the lowest and saddest time of his life
This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it:
"Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you,
You'd walk with me all the way.
But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times of my life
there is only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why when I needed you the most,
You would leave me."
The Lord replied:
"My son, My precious child, I love you and I would never leave you.
During you times of trial and suffering, when you have
seen only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you."

"Lord tell him I love him just as much as I did before
And could you please make a window, so he can see through heaven's floor.
Let him see that he is missed and thought of with each breath...
And that a Mother's love begins before life, and does not end with death."
We thought of you today,
But that is nothing new
We thought of you yesterday
And will tomorrow, too

We think of you in silence
And make no outward show
For what it meant to lose you
Only those who love you know

Remembering you is easy
We do it everyday
It's the heartache of losing you
That will never go away.

Author unknown

Don't Tell Me That You Understand


Don't tell me that you understand,
don't tell me that you know.
Don't tell me that I will survive,
How I will surely grow.

Don't tell me this is just a test,
That I am truly blessed.
That I am chosen for the task,
Apart from all the rest.

Don't come at me with answers
That can only come from me,
Don't tell me how my grief will pass,
That I will soon be free.

Don't stand in pious judgment
Of the bonds I must untie,
Don't tell me how to grieve,
Don't tell me when to cry.

My life is filled with selfishness,
My pain is all I see,
but I need you and your love...
Unconditionally.

Accept me in my ups and downs,
I need someone to share,
Just hold my hand and let me cry,
And say, "My friend, I care."

Author unknown

When Life Goes On

What is it, I wonder, that we set our hope upon?
There must come a point in this grieving process
when the choice is in my own hands.
In dark moments, I played with the idea of death
listened to it and enjoyed it
as one might enjoy the sweetness of forbidden fruit.
But I made a choice, a decision
as impossible as it seems,
I must learn to live without my child;
for I really have no other choice.
It may take many years
much longer that others expect,
but a time must come when I have to accept
his death in order to accept his life,
and accept my own as well.
Just as surely as my child walked toward eternal life,
I, too,
must walk toward my own light,
finding a way through this tunnel of darkness
to the brightness of a new day.
And in my own time, learn to live again
with laughter, love and joy
for myself, for my child, for those still in need.
So just for this moment,
just for this day,
I set my hope upon tomorrow.

The Rain

Around me falls the silent rain,
Dark clouds sound the thunder.
My body's failed me once again
Can I endure much more? I wonder.

A weakened mind cries out for mercy,
A stronger heart...it quests for hope.
There is no sun - today is dreary,
A shroud of mourning does envelope.

The wrath I sense cannot be stated
In words that one can understand.
All good feelings have now abated,
My tears I wipe with weakened hand.

Fields of lilies grow this spring
They bloom in all their glory...
Yet for me there is no life to bring
My child is but a memory.

Softly the leaves of memory fall
Gently I gather and treasure them all,
Unseen, unheard you are always near,
So missed, so loved, so very dear.
No longer in our lives to share,
But in our hearts you're always there.

- Author Unknown -

Our hearts are filled with memories
The sound of laughter's ring
You've moved on to your final rest
A place where angels sing

A land where flowers never fade
Where little children play
They say true love will never die
We'll meet again some day.

We little knew that morning,
God was going to call your name,
In life we loved you dearly,
In death we do the same.

It broke our hearts to lose you,
You did not go alone.
For part of us went with you
The day God called you home.

You left us beautiful memories,
Your love is still our guide,
And though we cannot see you,
You are always at our side.

Our family chain is broken,
And nothing seems the same,
But as God calls us one by one,
The chain will link again.

Author Unknown
Empty Places

The tractor still sits on the shelf in the store,
The overalls rest in a box,
No cowboy boots tossed on the floor by the bed
While the cowboy "rides horse" in his socks.

No sleepy-soft smiles as I nurse him to sleep,
After reading just one story more.
Vrroom-vrrooms and putt-putts aren't heard in our house
No little boy plays on the floor.

No hammer and nails in a two-year-olds hands,
As he struggles to build like his dad,
No smashed thumb, "Please rocky me, Mommy," he sobs,
No spankings--he'll never be bad.

Two impish eyes full of mischief and glee,
Two dirt-smudged small cheeks I can't kiss,
Two little-boy arms giving back my quick hug,
These are some of the blessings we miss.

No boyish voice begging to go with his dad
Out fishing, or hunting for deer,
No tousled blonde crew-cut asleep in his bed,
Drawing forth from my heart a love-tear.

Our new family picture is missing someone,
And so is our home life, it seems,
Yet a small boy goes galloping all 'round the room,
And he lives in my secret heart-dreams.

The tractor still waits on the shelf in the store,
His little lamb silently sleeps,
An empty place echoes a little boy's name
In the memories my dreaming heart keeps.

Arlene Stamy

Everybody Cries

By

Liberty X

Oh baby let it rain
I feel it washing over me
The anxiety
I watch it fade away
Coz everything can change
It changes right in front of me
Could you set me free
To where I wanna be

Is something wrong, is there a reason why
We're putting up a fight
Don't be ashamed to open up your heart
Everybody cries

I look above and search into the sky
To help me make it right
And now you're gone, well what am I to do
Everybody cries
Goodbye is kinda hard
It's not a thing I like to do
Can you pull me through
Into a better day
Forever in my heart
You'll always be a part of me
You believed in me
And that I won't forget

Is something wrong, is there a reason why
We're putting up a fight
Don't be ashamed to open up your heart
Everybody cries


No-one Should ever be lonely
And we were meant to walk together
Together

The most beautiful stones
Have been tossed
By the wind and washed by the water
and polished to brilliance
by lifes strongest storms.

Somehow, somewhere
in all you're going through,
May something
beautiful
Come out of this
for you.

- Author Unknown -

' I Will Remember You '

by

Sarah Mclachlan

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin' in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I'm so tired but I can't sleep
Standin' on the edge of something much too deep
It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard

But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I'm so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Weep not for the memories

' I Believe '

By

Diamond Rio

Every now and then soft as breath upon my skin
I feel you come back again
And it's like you haven't been gone a moment from my side
Like the tears were never cried
Like the hands of time are holding you and me
And with all my heart I'm sure we're closer than we ever were
I don't have to hear or see, I've got all the proof I need
There are more than angels watching over me
I believe, I believe

That when you die your life goes on
It doesn't end here when you're gone
Every soul is filled with light
It never ends and if I'm right
Our love can even reach across eternity
I believe, I believe

Forever, you're a part of me
Forever, in the heart of me
And I'll hold you even longer if I can
The people who don't see the most
Say that I believe in ghosts
And if that makes me crazy, then I am
'cause I believe

There are more than angels watching over me
I believe, I believe

' One More Day '

by

Diamond Rio

Last night I had a crazy dream
A wish was granted just for me
It could be for anything
I didn't ask for money
Or a mansion in malibu
I simply wished, for one more day with you

One more day
One more time
One more sunset, maybe I'd be satisfied
But then again
I know what it would do
Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you

First thing I'd do, is pray for time to crawl
Then I'd unplug the telephone
And keep the TV off
I'd hold you every second
Say a million I love you's
That's what I'd do, with one more day with you

One more day
One more time
One more sunset, maybe I'd be satisfied
But then again
I know what it would do
Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you

Leave me wishing still, for one more day
Leave me wishing still, for one more day

For all those months I held you close
deep inside of me.
I planned your life and dreamed about
the child you'd grow to be
The days went by. I felt you move.
I chose a name for you.
I bought you clothes and fixed your room
it all looked bright and new.
Then all went wrong. The birth was bad.
And you just couldn't live.
You left me there with empty arms.
And all this love to give.
I had one chance to hold you,
to say goodbye to what we shared.
Somehow I felt you would know
how much I really cared.
For I had grown to know you
when you lived inside of me.
And I will always love you.
Though your life will never be.

- Author Unknown -

' The Voice Within '

by

Christina Aguilera


Young girl, don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl, it's all right
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly
When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Young girl, don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away
Young girl, just hold tight
And soon you're gonna see your brighter day
Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you're lost outside look inside to your soul
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Yeah...
Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know
(Be strong)
You'll break it
(Hold On)
You'll make it
Just don't forsake it because
No one can stop you
You know that I'm talking to you
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
There is a language known to few
a language rich with brilliant hue,
That says more things than words can say
in a radiant, glorious, vibrant, way.
This language brings to those who see
its beauty, grace and mystery,
Enchanted moments, lovely hours
they speak the Language of Flowers.

- Author Unknown -
There is a legend about a bird which sings just once in its life,
more sweetly than any other creature on the face of the earth.
From the moment it leaves the nest it searches for a thorn tree,
and does not rest until it has found one.
Then, singing among the savage branches,
it impales itself upon the longest, sharpest spine.
And, dying, it rises above its own agony to
out-carol the lark and the nightingale.
One superlative song, existence the price.
But the whole world stills to listen,
and God in His heaven smiles.
For the best is only bought at the cost of great pain....
Or so says the legend.

Source: THE THORN BIRDS.
Colleen McCullough.
Great Britain.
1980
How silent is this place
The brilliant sunshine filters through the trees
The leaves are rustled by a gentle breeze
A wild and open space
By shrubs pink tipped, mauve blossomed, is o'ergrown
A hush enfolds me, deep as I've known
Unbroken, save by distant insects drone
A jungle clearing
A track through which we bare our load to Him
It is our Paradise Road
How silent is this place
How sacred is this place.

Margaret Drummond
REMEMBER

by

Christina Rossetti

(1830-1894)


REMEMBER me when I am gone away,
Gone far away into the silent land;
When you can no more hold me by the hand,
Nor I half turn to go, yet turning stay.
Remember me when no more day by day
You tell me of our future that you plann'd:
Only remember me; you understand
It will be late to counsel then or pray.
Yet if you should forget me for a while
And afterwards remember, do not grieve:
For if the darkness and corruption leave
A vestige of the thoughts that once I had,
Better by far you should forget and smile
Than that you should remember and be sad.
In the rising of the sun and in its going down,
We remember them.
In the blowing of the wind and in the chill of winter,
We remember them.
In the opening of buds and in the warmth of summer,
We remember them.
In the rustling of leaves and the beauty of autumn,
We remember them.
In the beginning of the year and when it ends,
We remember them.
When we are weary and in need of strength,
We remember them.
When we are lost and sick at heart,
We remember them.
When we have joys we yearn to share,
We remember them.
So long as we live, they too shall live,
for they are now a part of us as...
We remember them.

- Author Unknown -
God made babies to bring the sweetest gift of love.
He blessed our hearts as parents with a gift from up above.
God shared with us our baby girl and filled each day with true delight
and how we've both missed your happy smile
which would have made our world so bright.


- Author Unknown -
We Have Not Got The Plague

(It hurts so much)


We had a death in the family, just short ago,
now people avoid us wherever we go.
It's hard enough for us just taking in fresh air,
or trying to work out what clothes to wear.
When we walk along the street a silent bell must toll,
the street gets so empty, you can almost see the tumbleweed roll.
Our old friends look in shop windows when we pass by,
we just carry on walking and heave a great sigh.
The occasional person will stop to say hello,
when we start to talk, they say sorry must go.
We are trying so hard to get our lives back to normal,
but it's kind of hard when your old friends are so formal.
We feel like shouting out, We have not got the plague,
but it is not their fault that they are so vague.
We will continue to do our daily walks,
but it hurts so much when nobody talks.
The sky fell in on us and our friends fell out,
at night when were are home, all we want to do is scream and shout.
Life for us now will never be the same,
but we really wish that our good friends would remain.

Jim William McVean
What a Grieving

Mother Really Thinks


Hello old friend,
Oh yes you know
I lost my child a while ago.
No, no please
Don't look away
And change the subject, It's OK.
You see at first I couldn't feel,
It took so long,
but now it's real.
I hurt so much inside you see
I need to talk,
Come sit with me?
You see,
I was numb for so very long,
And people said,
"My, She is so strong."
They did not know
I couldn't feel,
My broken heart
made all unreal.
But then one day, as I awoke
I clutched my chest,
began to choke,
Such a scream, such a wail,
Broke from me..
My child! My child!
The horror of reality.
But everyone has moved on,
you see,
everyone except for me.
Now, when
I need friends most of all,
Between us there now stands a wall.
My pain is more than they can bear,
When I mention my child,
I see their blank stare.
"But I thought you were over it,"
Their eyes seem to say,
No, no, I can't listen to this,
not today.
So I smile and pretend, and say,
"Oh, I'm OK".
But inside I am crying,
as I turn away.
And so my old friend,
I shall paint on a smile,
As I have from the start,
You never knowing all the while,
All I've just said to
you in my heart.

Kelly Cummings


9/8/02
When you lose your identity,
When you question who you are,
Where you are going...
Open your heart and see me,
I am the twinkle of the stars
Smiling down upon you...
Lighting the path for your journey.

Anonymous

' Magnus & Vicky '

No words can adequately describe our feeling,
and we know that both your heads must be reeling
To have lost a wee life before he had a chance to begin,
No amount of tears can bring him back again.

Just be with each other at this time,
when you need each other most, you will find,
the pain will not go away but it will ease,
nobody should have to go through times like these.

Know that we are thinking of you both at this time,
These thoughts come from Barbara-Ann, Barbara and mine.
Sad at your loss and sad for both of you,
please let us know if there is anything we can do.

Jim McVean

I really wanted to post this on here as this is a poem that was sent to us from some very dear friends and it means a great deal to us. They have been so kind and we would like to thank them from the bottom of our hearts for everything they have done to comfort and support us through this time

Thankyou

Jim, Babs, Barbara-Ann & Pete.

' Mothers Dream '

I carried you so lovingly,
Within my gentle womb...
And little did I realise,
Your life would end too soon.

I never got the chance to say
"I love you, little one"...
Before I held you in my arms,
Your life on earth was done.

The grief is indescribable,
To lose a child this way...
All the many hopes and dreams,
Just vanished on that day.

I know I'll see the sun shine bright
Upon my baby's face...
When I finally get to heaven,
All my pain will be erased.

We'll soar the skies together,
As angels two by two...
We'll have a sweet reunion
This mother's dream come true.

~ Unknown Author ~

To My Dearest Family

Where I dwell, there is no pain
There is no cold, no dreary rain
I find a rainbow every day
And touch the sun's most warming rays
I know you wish that I were there
So you could hug and hold me near
So you would see my bright eyes shine
Yet I am yours and you are mine
You ponder years that'll come and go
The little one you won't watch grow
But treasure me safely within your hearts
For there we shall not be apart
I gaze on you from heaven above
I sense your thoughts and feel your love
Please realise, here I am at peace
I pray some of your pain may cease
God did not create a "never" Hence,
once again we'll be together
Until such time that we shall meet
In altered words may I repeat:
I am safe...I am with you...

I Love You,

- Author Unknown -

' Beautiful Music '

by

Amy Grant

Once my life had no direction
I was lost as could be
I was caught in a whirlpool
Spinning around in misery
I needed a friend
You took me in and
You touched my heart
With your song of love
You gave me a brand new start

Now there's beautiful music
Flowin' all through me
Just like you said
Angels singing, joy bells ringing
Inside my head
Since you came inside me
Now I am lost inside your love

You gave me just enough
To make me hunger for more of you
Now I am hooked on Your lovin'
And I don't want to break loose
With my heart in my hand
I'm yours to command
Do what you want me to
Just never let me go
Lord I am so in love with You

Now there's beautiful music
Flowin' all through me
Just like you said
Angels singing, joy bells ringing
Inside my head
Since you came inside me
Now I am lost inside your love

When I fell asleep last night
There was a mild rain
I laid there listening to it fall
Drowning in my pain

"Why did you take my babies?"
I prayed to God asking why
Why did you take them from me?
Why did they have to die?

Why cause so much suffering?
Why take away my dreams?
You must really hate me
At least that's how it seems.

I don't really want an answer
It won't be what I want to hear
I can not have them back now
And that's more than I can bear.

Why did you hurt me so much?
The pain is so bad you know.
I wanted to hold them in my arms
Why couldn't I watch them grow?

When I woke this morning
Getting up was an inner fight
I opened up the curtains to see
The sun shining bright

The grass was so green
The trees were shedding leaves
A soft mist was in the air
Blowing in the Autumn breeze

The birds fly past me freely,
Peacefully they flew high
To the pillow like clouds
On the blanket of blue sky

As the day drew to an end
As the sun began to set
Beautiful colours filled the land
As the sun and the hills met

Darkness filled the sky
And stars began to arrive
They shone like diamonds
And I realised I am alive

God answered my questions
All along I had been blind
The answers were right
There I had to search to find

He has been telling me all along
I just didn't want to see
He had been making it so clear
This is what he said to me...

"I am so sorry that you hurt
Please look close and you'll see
Your children have not gone
They are here and safe with me

I never took them from you
I borrowed them for all to share
They're too beautiful to have to yourself
It simply would be unfair

They are up here with me
They are watching over you
They said to say thank you
And that they love you too.

They ask you to be happy
They ask you not to cry
They say there's no need
They say not to say goodbye

They say they didn't die
For they have not gone
They will live on forever
Your love makes them strong

Did you ever stop and wonder how
There are endless smiles?
How there is so much laughter
And strength to see through trials?

Your children help create it
Their happiness comes through
It comes through in everyone
Everyone including you

Their beauty shines over the world
Just stop and take a look around
It comes through in every smile
In every laugh that can be found

So they say why are you so sad?
For the best thing you can do
To show them that you love them
Is let their happiness shine through

They shine in every sunset
They sparkle in every star
They fly with every breeze
From you they are never far

So they say why hide away in pain?
Let them show their beauty to you
Appreciate their work of art
Let it make you proud too.

I know you wanted to hold them
I'm so sorry they couldn't stay
But I promise you something
They haven't gone away

One day you will hold them
Until then know they are fine
For other than in YOUR arms
Where better than in MINE?"

Mother of 5 angels

"If I can not hold you in my arms,
there is no others I'ed rather you be in than in gods"

Cayden - was 6 wks pregnant 6-6-2001
Maddison - was 12 wks pregnant 10-12-2001
Logan - was 2 wks pregnant 24-10-2003
Noah - was 4 wks pregnant went to Heaven 01-03-2004
Hope - was 4 wks pregnant went to Heaven 02-03-2004

I may never have got to hold my babies in my arms,
but I hold them somewhere where no one can take them from me
- (((in my heart))). for this reason I need to move forward with my life and be happy, so that my (((heart))) can be filled with love, happiness, hope and dreams - for my angels.


Haley

To: Nana Ward # 1

' The Brightest Star in Heaven '

Dear Nana,

Thank you for the card you left for me
when you passed away
It really helped to ease my pain
I read through it everyday.

I blew a kiss to the brightest star,
you wrote, that when I look and see
a bright star in the sky
it'll be you watching over me

Reading this helped me heaps
when my children came to you
I look for their stars every night
I know they watch over me too

Last night the stars came out late
it was probably round eleven
Did you let them stay up Nana
or was there a party in heaven?

And sometimes there aren't 5 stars
so I know they are in with you
You were always to easy to persaude
do they get mallowpuffs in bed too?

I saw the twins stars last week
two almost touching stars
They won't ever be far apart
so I know those twins are ours.

I'll look for your stars every night
it allows my imagination to flow
Late nights or in bed with Nana?
the stars will let me know.

I love you Nana and thank you
I know my babies are with you
Please tell them that I miss them
and that I love them too.

Mother of 5 angels

"If I can not hold you in my arms,
there is no others I'd rather you be in than in gods"


Cayden - was 6 wks pregnant 6-6-2001
Maddison - was 12 wks pregnant 10-12-2001
Logan - was 2 wks pregnant 24-10-2003
Noah - was 4 wks pregnant went to Heaven 01-03-2004
Hope - was 4 wks pregnant went to Heaven 02-03-2004

I may never have got to hold my babies in my arms,
but I hold them somewhere where no one can take them from me
- (((in my heart))). for this reason I need to move forward with my life and be happy, so that my (((heart))) can be filled with love, happiness, hope and dreams - for my angels.

Haley

One day we'll meet again, my love
In heaven's glory up above
When I get there I'll see this
tiny body running towards me
I will hear a little voice squeal "Mommy"
as you fly into my arms
I will hug you and kiss you and cry happy
tears and tell you how much I love you
and how much I have missed you with not
being able to have you near
As I hug you, you turn and smile at me
Mommy I know how much you love me
everything you did in your life on earth shows
And that you missed me so
But Mommy please let me go I can't breath and your
hugging so tightly it hurts when you squeeze
So I hold your tiny hand , your so excited to show me
everything in the promised land
You show me heaven's nursery and where you lay your tiny head
that has your name painted on letters at the foot of your bed
And lead me to the playroom,
so can meet all your angel friends
Mommy these are my friends as you point and say names
Tayler, Lilyana, Maleiya, Jaycee and a few others too
Now Mommy come with me, you can meet Jesus and God,
Mary and the disciples the ones who let me know
how much you love me and help take care of me
Then you stop and look at me with your big dark eyes,
Mommy everyday I pray and told Jesus how much
I missed you and how I wanted you here
Jesus promised me this day would come and now it's finally here!
Mommy I love you and I am glad your in heaven now to,
now together we can do all the things that you dreamed we would do
You hold my hand as we skipped to the park
and I pushed you on the swing until it was dark,
you fell asleep I carried you home
I tucked you in, kissed you on the cheek
And heard you talking to me in your sleep
See mommy it's just like you promised, just like Jesus said
One day we'll meet again,
and now were together forever and ever and ever and ever
Night Mommy I love you, I can't wait until tomorrow,
Were together again.

Written By: Nicole B. Stienley
Beautiful memories
Silently kept
of a baby we loved
And will never forget
We really appreciate you visiting Thomas's website.
We like to know who has taken the time to visit our precious little boy and would like to invite you to leave a message in Thomas's guestbook.
Just click on the link below!

February 23rd 2003 'Baby D' - Miscarraige 10 weeks pregnant

Thomas - January 1st 2004 8:31am - Born Still (31 1/4 wks)

"Fly, fly little wing - Fly beyond imagining"

Pregnant Again: Due - 4th November 2004....
'Please let us take this one home with us'

Miscarriage - Lost twin - 31st March 2004 at 9 weeks

~ Milly Ingrid Dixon ~

Born on the 16th November 2004, 3:43am - 8lbs 12ozs

A beautiful baby sister for Thomas!

~ Robert George Dixon ~

Born on the 18th March 2008 - 7lbs 15ozs

CANDLE OF HOPE

The above 'Candle Of Hope' was
sent to me by a friend
and it touched me
I wanted to share it here.

PREGNANCY AND INFANT LOSS
REMEMBRANCE DAY IS
OCTOBER 15

LIGHT A CANDLE AT 7 P.M. (ALL TIME ZONES)
TO HONOUR OUR BABIES

FLOWERS FOR THOMAS
Many people sent us flowers when they had heard the news of our loss, Mummy wanted to remember how beautiful they were so took some photos of some of them. I have put some of their meanings alongside.
White Lilly's - Purity
This heartwarming story began its Internet life around April 1998, after having appeared under its original title, "Heaven Scent," in Miracles in Our Midst, a 1997 compilation of inspirational tales.